Unmoved

For the first time in my life I went for a jog 30 minutes past midnight. Not bad.

Too much tension built up inside & feeling like I'll explode any second, I rushed home & got myself ready....and off I went...!

Felt like something in me died. Lost the drive to work hard. Months ago I would never imagine this happening to me. Thought that my one week break would do the trick only to find out I was wrong. I tried many things especially during that one week. Yesterday was the first day after my one week break, today the second. I still feel as bad as I did before.

Tension lowered physically but mentally tired still. I thought I've moved on to another level but now it seems like I have been circling the same mountain many times. How many times will it take for me to get it right? The spirit is willing but the body is weak. Now even my spirit is at it's low time.

At this moment I just get away from here!