It has been 2 months & 2 days since starting my new job.
Stress has been building up in me ever since day one. I have "refreshed" myself time & again but new issues keep on coming up & I felt that I was almost at the verge of letting go.
The incidents & circumstances have blinded me so badly, I have failed to see.
That was until two days ago when my trainer & I had a talk after a recent training session on service (as mentioned in my previous posts, one of the issues I had was being under-trained).
From this I came to understand her & her situation & vice versa. From here everything fell into place, & I believe it is the work of the Lord. I was stuck in a hole & felt lost with no way out. But just like that - when light comes into the picture, I was able to see!
Now the situation remains more or less the "same", further official training will only come in much later, "stuff" still happens, but with Jesus with me & with the Holy Spirit's guidance, I am able to have a different perspective. I will just have to learn how to take one step at a time! ^^
I will need to be "transfigured" again & again, this is not the end of troubles & trials. But, I am happy to know that God is real & is here & will be there when I need Him (all the time, that means huh? =P)
Oh...& looking at it as a whole, I now realized I did make some progress! I still have a long way to go but thank God I was not where I used to be! Amazing how sometimes I just get so worked up in the whole mess that I forget again & again to see the good things. Tsk...just gotta remind me of that time & again ;)
So...also the same reminder for everyone, when you feel frustrated, stop! Drop whatever you're doing for a second & breathe!! Think of what you've been upto for the past couple of weeks or months & see honestly how you've been doing. If you see progress (no matter how small) then give yourself a pat & be happy. If not, then you need to do something about it!
I have come into the world as light, to prevent anyone who believes in me from staying in the dark any more - John 12:46
God bless you, everyone! :)
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so true Glo, and it's comforting to know, that in the midst of it ALL...He is control, and has always been there..through thick and thin, frustration and comfort :-) God bless you too!
ReplyDeletethanx alot for sharing..a very meaningful reminder :)
ReplyDeleteYes indeed, we just need to learn trust Him :)
ReplyDeleteSter: You're welcome, more than glad to share! Will continue to proclaim His goodness~ :)
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