A Close Call

Today I was feeling very down. I got to see a side of my job which I did not expect & I did not like it. Indeed...with commitment comes sacrifice.

I am not allowed to take leave in June & November to Dec.

Well, that wouldn't be a problem if my sister's wedding which happens to be taking place in Sabah, is not in June...and...if my family's only most important time of the year is not Christmas...

A new rule to say we are not to have our mobile phones with us in our pockets seemed unpractical too. I can understand if we are not allowed to use our mobile at the counter, by all means! Honestly I am not comfortable with the idea of placing my mobile just in the the counter drawers especially when an incident of a missing item has happened not too long ago.

Also, incidents of superiors not keeping their words not once or twice, just plain dissappointing. "Small" matters or not I find a person untrustworthy if they do not honour their promises.

As work ended I felt even worse. I was very moody. Everyone around me at the train seem to irritate me. (Haha...ok now it seems funny...)

But well,

Perspective changes everything.

I could continue feeling bad about how my circumstances are, & worry about how I make progress from here.

Just before I reached home, it was around 11.30pm when I got a call from one of my ex-colleague. We had a long talk. One of the things that she talked about was how things are at her workplace. Cutting the story short, things were as bad as they were when I was still there if not worse.

Was it a coincidence for that phone call to come at such a late hour?

Now, I think it meant something more than just a chat with a good friend.

Once I cooled down a little, I decided to blog n blab (haha...) & saw Mad's recent post - a peek at some cancer patients lives & circumstances.

Perspective changes everything, really.

It's easy to fall into self-pity argh...but thank God for my wonderful friends! :)
Amazing how He speaks to us in so many different ways.
There are really so much more things to be happy about & it would be a waste to forget them all just because of some "small stuff"! Everything seemed like a "big thing" till we take a step back & look at the bigger picture. As long as we are confined in our own world, it will be difficult.

Yes, perspective changes everything.

Mad mentioned that one of the patient said that he has grown closer to his family since the diagnosis.

My circumstances, both past & present cannot even compare with any one of these individuals. When we put it that way, it is humbling.

Lesson learned - want what I have & be content. Like the saying, "there can never be enough for a person's greed".

Need to focus on doing my very best! :)