Monday, October 31, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Bored
I really do get bored too easily maybe... Recently I found out...to keep an interest or feeling alive takes up a lot of time n effort. Not that it came as a surprise, I just got a lil taken aback from how the heart can change so easily. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing, haha...
But in this instance I think it's a good thing, at least for me, but hmmm...what goes around comes around... So a little worried honestly. One day I'll reap what I sow. Better start sowing good seeds. Should be storing up real treasures instead of perishables. Been slacking off for a while now :/
But in this instance I think it's a good thing, at least for me, but hmmm...what goes around comes around... So a little worried honestly. One day I'll reap what I sow. Better start sowing good seeds. Should be storing up real treasures instead of perishables. Been slacking off for a while now :/
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Tomo
She was arrogant. She thought she knew what she was doing, she thought she had it all figured out. Thinking to herself, let's have a go. She has heard the saying, curiosity kills the cat. Now she knows even if it doesn't kill, it cuts.
Expectation drowns the surprise factor, she found. But she couldn't help it. She did not want to expect anything for fear of dissapointment. But her mind works on it's own, thinking of many things. Doubt n fear would not let her enjoy the moment.
She took a deep breath as she thought about the past week. She didn't even allow herself to be happy. Guilt works in a funny way. Guilt shadows & cuts short the joy that was meant to be. Why, how, or when Guilt crept in she does not know. All she knows is she only wished things would have been better. She wished she could see what she could see now.
With all these still playing in her mind, she went on her way to the river. Tomo is here for a visit. They have not met for a long time. She missed Tomo more than she could imagine. Tomo always seem to notice what others fail to notice. It is not that the others are blind, Tomo has a special gift it seems. Once again as always, Tomo recognized that something was amiss.
Tomo did not give any advise, did not ask much, did not demand an explanation. Tomo simply said some things that made her think. The things Tomo said hit right on the spot. She went home that night thinking about how & what she has been thinking about.
Almost everyone else is fooled. The mask that she wears & is still wearing has lead to the achievement of the results that she wanted. The only problem is that she realized that it is not what she wanted after all.
Then again, revelation has made it known to her that yes, she is taking one step at a time. No matter what, she is just learning. While learning, she is allowed to make mistakes. Life is indeed full of surprises. If we know what to expect of life then where is the excitement or reason?
Why complicate things? She wish she knew the answer. The end of each chapter always seem so easy, only after it has ended. She may always take the longer way to figure out the answer of each chapter, but she knows by now the shortest way may not be the best way to go either.
Then finally, when she can laugh about it, she knows she has moved on to the next chapter.
Expectation drowns the surprise factor, she found. But she couldn't help it. She did not want to expect anything for fear of dissapointment. But her mind works on it's own, thinking of many things. Doubt n fear would not let her enjoy the moment.
She took a deep breath as she thought about the past week. She didn't even allow herself to be happy. Guilt works in a funny way. Guilt shadows & cuts short the joy that was meant to be. Why, how, or when Guilt crept in she does not know. All she knows is she only wished things would have been better. She wished she could see what she could see now.
With all these still playing in her mind, she went on her way to the river. Tomo is here for a visit. They have not met for a long time. She missed Tomo more than she could imagine. Tomo always seem to notice what others fail to notice. It is not that the others are blind, Tomo has a special gift it seems. Once again as always, Tomo recognized that something was amiss.
Tomo did not give any advise, did not ask much, did not demand an explanation. Tomo simply said some things that made her think. The things Tomo said hit right on the spot. She went home that night thinking about how & what she has been thinking about.
Almost everyone else is fooled. The mask that she wears & is still wearing has lead to the achievement of the results that she wanted. The only problem is that she realized that it is not what she wanted after all.
Then again, revelation has made it known to her that yes, she is taking one step at a time. No matter what, she is just learning. While learning, she is allowed to make mistakes. Life is indeed full of surprises. If we know what to expect of life then where is the excitement or reason?
Why complicate things? She wish she knew the answer. The end of each chapter always seem so easy, only after it has ended. She may always take the longer way to figure out the answer of each chapter, but she knows by now the shortest way may not be the best way to go either.
Then finally, when she can laugh about it, she knows she has moved on to the next chapter.
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