Monday, October 31, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Bored
I really do get bored too easily maybe... Recently I found out...to keep an interest or feeling alive takes up a lot of time n effort. Not that it came as a surprise, I just got a lil taken aback from how the heart can change so easily. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing, haha...
But in this instance I think it's a good thing, at least for me, but hmmm...what goes around comes around... So a little worried honestly. One day I'll reap what I sow. Better start sowing good seeds. Should be storing up real treasures instead of perishables. Been slacking off for a while now :/
But in this instance I think it's a good thing, at least for me, but hmmm...what goes around comes around... So a little worried honestly. One day I'll reap what I sow. Better start sowing good seeds. Should be storing up real treasures instead of perishables. Been slacking off for a while now :/
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Tomo
She was arrogant. She thought she knew what she was doing, she thought she had it all figured out. Thinking to herself, let's have a go. She has heard the saying, curiosity kills the cat. Now she knows even if it doesn't kill, it cuts.
Expectation drowns the surprise factor, she found. But she couldn't help it. She did not want to expect anything for fear of dissapointment. But her mind works on it's own, thinking of many things. Doubt n fear would not let her enjoy the moment.
She took a deep breath as she thought about the past week. She didn't even allow herself to be happy. Guilt works in a funny way. Guilt shadows & cuts short the joy that was meant to be. Why, how, or when Guilt crept in she does not know. All she knows is she only wished things would have been better. She wished she could see what she could see now.
With all these still playing in her mind, she went on her way to the river. Tomo is here for a visit. They have not met for a long time. She missed Tomo more than she could imagine. Tomo always seem to notice what others fail to notice. It is not that the others are blind, Tomo has a special gift it seems. Once again as always, Tomo recognized that something was amiss.
Tomo did not give any advise, did not ask much, did not demand an explanation. Tomo simply said some things that made her think. The things Tomo said hit right on the spot. She went home that night thinking about how & what she has been thinking about.
Almost everyone else is fooled. The mask that she wears & is still wearing has lead to the achievement of the results that she wanted. The only problem is that she realized that it is not what she wanted after all.
Then again, revelation has made it known to her that yes, she is taking one step at a time. No matter what, she is just learning. While learning, she is allowed to make mistakes. Life is indeed full of surprises. If we know what to expect of life then where is the excitement or reason?
Why complicate things? She wish she knew the answer. The end of each chapter always seem so easy, only after it has ended. She may always take the longer way to figure out the answer of each chapter, but she knows by now the shortest way may not be the best way to go either.
Then finally, when she can laugh about it, she knows she has moved on to the next chapter.
Expectation drowns the surprise factor, she found. But she couldn't help it. She did not want to expect anything for fear of dissapointment. But her mind works on it's own, thinking of many things. Doubt n fear would not let her enjoy the moment.
She took a deep breath as she thought about the past week. She didn't even allow herself to be happy. Guilt works in a funny way. Guilt shadows & cuts short the joy that was meant to be. Why, how, or when Guilt crept in she does not know. All she knows is she only wished things would have been better. She wished she could see what she could see now.
With all these still playing in her mind, she went on her way to the river. Tomo is here for a visit. They have not met for a long time. She missed Tomo more than she could imagine. Tomo always seem to notice what others fail to notice. It is not that the others are blind, Tomo has a special gift it seems. Once again as always, Tomo recognized that something was amiss.
Tomo did not give any advise, did not ask much, did not demand an explanation. Tomo simply said some things that made her think. The things Tomo said hit right on the spot. She went home that night thinking about how & what she has been thinking about.
Almost everyone else is fooled. The mask that she wears & is still wearing has lead to the achievement of the results that she wanted. The only problem is that she realized that it is not what she wanted after all.
Then again, revelation has made it known to her that yes, she is taking one step at a time. No matter what, she is just learning. While learning, she is allowed to make mistakes. Life is indeed full of surprises. If we know what to expect of life then where is the excitement or reason?
Why complicate things? She wish she knew the answer. The end of each chapter always seem so easy, only after it has ended. She may always take the longer way to figure out the answer of each chapter, but she knows by now the shortest way may not be the best way to go either.
Then finally, when she can laugh about it, she knows she has moved on to the next chapter.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
He Himself Will Lead You
Just last week or so I was stuck & feeling lost after doubts on the path that I have taken came to my mind. What I was previously so sure of suddenly appeared to have been a mistake. I did not know what to do & it troubled me to try to sort it out. It seemed that the more I thought about it, the more puzzled i became.
However, thank God for the gift of trustworthy friends. I felt so much better after talking to them few days ago. Surely, true friends are priceless gifts from God :')
Although I'm not 100% certain on the path that I have taken, but well, nothing from this world is certain anyway! =P
As if nudging me on, today's reading seems to be guiding me too:
"Yahweh himself will lead you; He will be with you; He will not fail you or desert you. Have no fear, do not be alarmed."
- Deuteronomy 31:8
I earnestly pray that my eyes will be fixed on the Lord, so that I will not despair over the strong wind & tall waves.
&...yet, another reassurance from Jesus from today's reading:
"It is never the will of Your Father in heaven that one of these little ones should be lost."
- Matthew 18:14
How great is our God :)
Have a great day everyone & God bless you ^^
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Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Roller coaster ride
Not literally, mind you... a pretty darn ups n down filled day today it was...
This afternoon I was probably at the peak of my patience treshold... All it took was one more little prick & I knew I would lose it. So I went off during my lunch break as soon as I can. I knew I needed to cool down.
Feeling troubled & at a loss, off I went for a one hour break. Funny...I hate to admit it but I'm feeling sick. Tired. Weak.
The beauty hall (what they call the cosmetics department) doesn't seem very beautiful at all. Just 3 months on job & it is beginning to become unbearable. I do too wonder... Is it worth it to go on working in an unhealthy environment? Where people can smile at you in a moment, & the next minute can just treat you like you're invisible? Treat you like an enemy?
Those cold eyes are starting to get a grip on me unknowingly. I remember one passage when Jesus told His disciples to shake the dust off their feet if a town doesn't welcome them. So I ignored them & went on my way, thinking that hey, at least my own counter colleagues are okay :')
Well, that is not the case either but hey, no one is perfect right? I have many shortcomings too...
As much as I hated to do so, I finally admitted to myself today- that I was letting my emotion control me. A little voice in my head was telling me that. Stubborn as usual, I didn't like it but deep down I knew it was right. I was unable to control even my own emotion :(
Perhaps God is teaching me humility, because in my times of weakness, when I am powerless...that is when I would reach out to Him earnestly...humbly... I called to Him for help.
I don't know how but He lifted me up. I feel lighter. Now that I think about it, I was probably carrying a burden that I don't need to. That moment I know, He is there. I told myself, dear self, how doubtful can you get?
One thing I know though & what I repeated in my head over was this:
I am weak but You are strong,
I am a coward but You give me courage,
I am insignificant but You love me
Honestly I still cannot comprehend fully the love of God, I don't even though if I ever will. The future is uncertain, but I'm glad that the past, present & future is in His hands.
Just that is enough for now :')
This afternoon I was probably at the peak of my patience treshold... All it took was one more little prick & I knew I would lose it. So I went off during my lunch break as soon as I can. I knew I needed to cool down.
Feeling troubled & at a loss, off I went for a one hour break. Funny...I hate to admit it but I'm feeling sick. Tired. Weak.
The beauty hall (what they call the cosmetics department) doesn't seem very beautiful at all. Just 3 months on job & it is beginning to become unbearable. I do too wonder... Is it worth it to go on working in an unhealthy environment? Where people can smile at you in a moment, & the next minute can just treat you like you're invisible? Treat you like an enemy?
Those cold eyes are starting to get a grip on me unknowingly. I remember one passage when Jesus told His disciples to shake the dust off their feet if a town doesn't welcome them. So I ignored them & went on my way, thinking that hey, at least my own counter colleagues are okay :')
Well, that is not the case either but hey, no one is perfect right? I have many shortcomings too...
As much as I hated to do so, I finally admitted to myself today- that I was letting my emotion control me. A little voice in my head was telling me that. Stubborn as usual, I didn't like it but deep down I knew it was right. I was unable to control even my own emotion :(
Perhaps God is teaching me humility, because in my times of weakness, when I am powerless...that is when I would reach out to Him earnestly...humbly... I called to Him for help.
I don't know how but He lifted me up. I feel lighter. Now that I think about it, I was probably carrying a burden that I don't need to. That moment I know, He is there. I told myself, dear self, how doubtful can you get?
One thing I know though & what I repeated in my head over was this:
I am weak but You are strong,
I am a coward but You give me courage,
I am insignificant but You love me
Honestly I still cannot comprehend fully the love of God, I don't even though if I ever will. The future is uncertain, but I'm glad that the past, present & future is in His hands.
Just that is enough for now :')
Saturday, July 2, 2011
New Place
My eyes are closing but before going to sleep, just had to express these mixed feelings of mine... :)
Just yesterday my bro & I moved to a new place. The room was a lil bigger than what I remembered it to be (good thing it is, phew* with all the stuff we brought in lol!).
My sis arranged for movers & they were scheduled to come at 1.30pm. I woke up only around 10am haha... well, I guess it would have been ok if I have already finished packing my stuff...I have not finished even by 4am the "night" before & so I gave up & went to bed...
Anyway that morning, guess what? It was raining.. (no wonder it was so hard to get up, lol) Movers called & informed us that they will be an hour late. Honestly we didn't mind because there was still quite a bit to pack.
In the midst of packing our belongings into the boxes, we then realized that we needed 2 more extra boxes & two luggage bags. We have at least 5 extra boxes...the thing is that it is not included in the quotation! ...so my sis called the movers to inform them & ask them for a re-quote due to additional items. Surprisingly they did not charge us for the additional items~ yay! Thank you Jesus! ^^
We were very happy because in fact before we engaged this particular mover's company, my sis actually confirmed another company several days in advance. Let's call em Mover A. The price they quoted us in fact was more expensive (At that point of time we did not bother to compare the rates too much) which is still acceptable - apparently Mover A is supposed to be a established company.
Here comes the irritating part - Days before the actual day, we revised our pick-up list & added a few cartons & stuff. We would not be surprised for a revised price quotation but what turned us off was the staff's attitude. To cut the story short my sis felt that her tone of voice & choice of words were unnecessary, her attitude towards the situation was downright unprofessional. My sis already paid them the deposit, so maybe they thought that they could push us around...
Well, too bad for Mover A. We cancelled our booking with them & engaged Mover B instead. And guess what? We still save $50 :) Not to mention that later on we still added some last minute items hehe... =P
Everything turned out ok :)
Just a little tired from all these stuff until this afternoon. So happy! The packing & moving & unpacking & cleaning is over with! (Well, for now at least)
After some household-stuff shopping, ended the trip with a 1 hour foot massage ^^ A very good relief for my aching feet, mostly from standing for long hours.
Tired, sleepy, last but not least, content :)
God bless you all
Till next time, jia ne~
Just yesterday my bro & I moved to a new place. The room was a lil bigger than what I remembered it to be (good thing it is, phew* with all the stuff we brought in lol!).
My sis arranged for movers & they were scheduled to come at 1.30pm. I woke up only around 10am haha... well, I guess it would have been ok if I have already finished packing my stuff...I have not finished even by 4am the "night" before & so I gave up & went to bed...
Anyway that morning, guess what? It was raining.. (no wonder it was so hard to get up, lol) Movers called & informed us that they will be an hour late. Honestly we didn't mind because there was still quite a bit to pack.
In the midst of packing our belongings into the boxes, we then realized that we needed 2 more extra boxes & two luggage bags. We have at least 5 extra boxes...the thing is that it is not included in the quotation! ...so my sis called the movers to inform them & ask them for a re-quote due to additional items. Surprisingly they did not charge us for the additional items~ yay! Thank you Jesus! ^^
We were very happy because in fact before we engaged this particular mover's company, my sis actually confirmed another company several days in advance. Let's call em Mover A. The price they quoted us in fact was more expensive (At that point of time we did not bother to compare the rates too much) which is still acceptable - apparently Mover A is supposed to be a established company.
Here comes the irritating part - Days before the actual day, we revised our pick-up list & added a few cartons & stuff. We would not be surprised for a revised price quotation but what turned us off was the staff's attitude. To cut the story short my sis felt that her tone of voice & choice of words were unnecessary, her attitude towards the situation was downright unprofessional. My sis already paid them the deposit, so maybe they thought that they could push us around...
Well, too bad for Mover A. We cancelled our booking with them & engaged Mover B instead. And guess what? We still save $50 :) Not to mention that later on we still added some last minute items hehe... =P
Everything turned out ok :)
Just a little tired from all these stuff until this afternoon. So happy! The packing & moving & unpacking & cleaning is over with! (Well, for now at least)
After some household-stuff shopping, ended the trip with a 1 hour foot massage ^^ A very good relief for my aching feet, mostly from standing for long hours.
Tired, sleepy, last but not least, content :)
God bless you all
Till next time, jia ne~
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Hanging by a thread
To give up or not to give up
a choice...
not trying is the same as giving up huh?
life is tough...
While I was still lost in thoughts, all of a sudden I am reminded of a familiar saying by someone so dear, "The greatest loss is a result caused more often by indecision rather than wrong decisions."
So true...
I guess I have my answer now... :)
a choice...
not trying is the same as giving up huh?
life is tough...
While I was still lost in thoughts, all of a sudden I am reminded of a familiar saying by someone so dear, "The greatest loss is a result caused more often by indecision rather than wrong decisions."
So true...
I guess I have my answer now... :)
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Me musing
It's been 2 weeks since my last post & glad to be well to blog & do my stuff :)
Today was a tiring day with what seems to be a fruitless day with few opened bills, weird encounters & unpleasant people ... I tried to think positive thoughts, "There will be ups & downs in sales" (which is very true) There will be days without much & there will be more on another occassion. There is a time for everything. Ahhh yes, what a great reminder that was.
The more important thing which I must not forget is, what my Dad used to tell me many times, "seek first the kingdom of God & all other things shall be added unto you"
Today's readings too tell us the same story,
Jesus said to His disciples:
"Do not store up treasures for yourselves on earth....but store up treasures for yourselves in heaven, where neither moth nor woodworm destroys them & thieves cannot break in & steal.
For wherever your treasure is, there will your heart be too."
Where is your heart? Do you trust money more than you trust God?
Amidst all the pressure to hit my sales target:- my 3 months probation is nearing it's review, my performance since day 1 has went downhill fast, changes in company policies, changes in commision schemes for the worst, etc...it was almost as if I had no choice but to make it & hit my target this month. Thanks to the grace of God, I have fared quite well so far but then just a little bit of roughness today & I felt shaken. I myself find it funny now... :P
So when it was nearing to the end of a tiring & unproductive day, I asked myself a question, "If today is my last day, would it matter if I had closed perhaps a thousand or even a ten thousand dollar bill? My answer is "No." As simple as that, it must mean it is not really important after all!
It truly was a great way to overcome my lack of morale then ^^
That method was one mentioned in the book "Don't sweat the small stuff" as i recalled it. Interestingly, same can be applied to other situations. Next time your feelings mislead you, try it... see if that thing that bothers you really matters that much ;)
Ok, that's all for now, gotta get some rest tonight, tomorrow is another day!
Until next time! God bless ^^
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Today was a tiring day with what seems to be a fruitless day with few opened bills, weird encounters & unpleasant people ... I tried to think positive thoughts, "There will be ups & downs in sales" (which is very true) There will be days without much & there will be more on another occassion. There is a time for everything. Ahhh yes, what a great reminder that was.
The more important thing which I must not forget is, what my Dad used to tell me many times, "seek first the kingdom of God & all other things shall be added unto you"
Today's readings too tell us the same story,
Jesus said to His disciples:
"Do not store up treasures for yourselves on earth....but store up treasures for yourselves in heaven, where neither moth nor woodworm destroys them & thieves cannot break in & steal.
For wherever your treasure is, there will your heart be too."
Where is your heart? Do you trust money more than you trust God?
Amidst all the pressure to hit my sales target:- my 3 months probation is nearing it's review, my performance since day 1 has went downhill fast, changes in company policies, changes in commision schemes for the worst, etc...it was almost as if I had no choice but to make it & hit my target this month. Thanks to the grace of God, I have fared quite well so far but then just a little bit of roughness today & I felt shaken. I myself find it funny now... :P
So when it was nearing to the end of a tiring & unproductive day, I asked myself a question, "If today is my last day, would it matter if I had closed perhaps a thousand or even a ten thousand dollar bill? My answer is "No." As simple as that, it must mean it is not really important after all!
It truly was a great way to overcome my lack of morale then ^^
That method was one mentioned in the book "Don't sweat the small stuff" as i recalled it. Interestingly, same can be applied to other situations. Next time your feelings mislead you, try it... see if that thing that bothers you really matters that much ;)
Ok, that's all for now, gotta get some rest tonight, tomorrow is another day!
Until next time! God bless ^^
*****
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Another day another chance!
What comes into mind when you think about tomorrow? Do you dread the coming of tomorrow? At one point or more I did.
Did you worry & do you still worry? Feel anxious?
Do you sigh, thinking of what tomorrow may bring?
Do any of these ring a bell:-
"Oh man, I don't know if I can pull through this month..."
"My boss expects too much of me..."
"How on earth will I have enough money to pay the bills..."
"I don't have enough time..."
As hard as it is to admit it...when I think about what i think about it I have to admit, I worry about many things.
"What would this person think if...?"
"When will I be better at this?"
"I just suck at this"
"How do I make things better?"
"How am I to hit my sales target?"
The list goes on & on...
There are too many uncertainties.
I am afraid of uncertainties
Afraid that I am not good enough
Afraid to dissappoint
Afraid that God is sick of me
However the Word tells a different story
Jesus always tells us not to worry, & he always tells us to take courage! There are many occasions in the Bible when He tells His disciples not to be afraid. Indeed, we need a whole lot of courage to live our lives according to His ways.
For human as we are, we can never achieve perfection in our life on earth. Accepting Christ into our lives does not mean that we are free from troubles. That is why God sent us the Holy Spirit to be our advocate, to help pick us up everytime we stumble & fall. It takes courage to trust in God instead of trusting our own feelings. It takes courage to accept His forgiveness (over & over again).
So never stop asking for the Holy Spirit for we cannot do without Him.
Instead of dreading the days to come, let us put our hope in Jesus.
And this is the will of Him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those He has given me, but raise them up at the last day.
John 6:39
Knowing this, we can trust that the Holy Spirit is leading us to our loving Father.
Every day bring with it a new challenge but it also means more time for us, another chance, more opportunities, experience.
Ain't that a happy thing?
Peace be with you all =)
*Credits to the book "Fearless" by Max Lucado
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Did you worry & do you still worry? Feel anxious?
Do you sigh, thinking of what tomorrow may bring?
Do any of these ring a bell:-
"Oh man, I don't know if I can pull through this month..."
"My boss expects too much of me..."
"How on earth will I have enough money to pay the bills..."
"I don't have enough time..."
As hard as it is to admit it...when I think about what i think about it I have to admit, I worry about many things.
"What would this person think if...?"
"When will I be better at this?"
"I just suck at this"
"How do I make things better?"
"How am I to hit my sales target?"
The list goes on & on...
There are too many uncertainties.
I am afraid of uncertainties
Afraid that I am not good enough
Afraid to dissappoint
Afraid that God is sick of me
However the Word tells a different story
Jesus always tells us not to worry, & he always tells us to take courage! There are many occasions in the Bible when He tells His disciples not to be afraid. Indeed, we need a whole lot of courage to live our lives according to His ways.
For human as we are, we can never achieve perfection in our life on earth. Accepting Christ into our lives does not mean that we are free from troubles. That is why God sent us the Holy Spirit to be our advocate, to help pick us up everytime we stumble & fall. It takes courage to trust in God instead of trusting our own feelings. It takes courage to accept His forgiveness (over & over again).
So never stop asking for the Holy Spirit for we cannot do without Him.
Instead of dreading the days to come, let us put our hope in Jesus.
And this is the will of Him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those He has given me, but raise them up at the last day.
John 6:39
Knowing this, we can trust that the Holy Spirit is leading us to our loving Father.
Every day bring with it a new challenge but it also means more time for us, another chance, more opportunities, experience.
Ain't that a happy thing?
Peace be with you all =)
*Credits to the book "Fearless" by Max Lucado
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Tuesday, May 24, 2011
What comes next?
Re-focused mind & now what? To keep up the pace for a long term plan requires determination & effort :)
I bought some mind-enriching books to keep my mind occupied with good things. Oh yes, including my fav book, the Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer. Felt that I need to re-read the whole book to re-align my thinking patterns ^^ I read that book when I was back at home, it's my Mum's & I didn't bring it over here so that my sisters back at home get to read it too. Good things are meant to be shared with others ^^.
p/s: the book is not expensive, I bought it for about $18 only, what the heck, I would've spent the money on shoes & bags & it would have cost me way more than that hehe...
The other book seems very interesting too but will share a little more about it once I've started reading yet. Can't wait to get my hands or rather eyes on them but wait....one step at a time~
What I'm trying to say is to never stop trying. If you want to do something then just get on with it! Time for some action ;)
Like today, I have been procastinating on my jogging sessions but yeah finally! - Finished work at 5.30pm today & reached home around 6.30pm.
Gulped some water down my throat & off I went for my jog. When you've not been jogging for quite some time the body loses it's momentum...The lack of stamina...tsk* T_T
It wasn't easy. Less than 3 minutes & I already felt tired lol =P
Immediately switched to plan B lol - interval training: 5 minutes of running & walking each, back-to-back, believe me...good workout *_* lasted for about 30 minutes. That was followed by resistance training & yay~ my dumbbells are finally used again after so long hehe...
Yeah...laziness kills a lot of good stuff, think about it! We miss out on so many good things because we feel lazy. Hmmm... ;)
Oh...which reminds me... ^^ This whole determination can only last with good DISCIPLINE
Then one of the main thing that stops us is LAZINESS...
We are being deceived to think that it is alright to be lazy.
I think we all underestimate what laziness can do to us, & what it stops us from receiving- good things too usually!
When we think about it, laziness lead to or may be directly or indirectly connected to procastination, indifference, obesity, health problems, etc etc...
I leave the rest to your imagination...
May all of you have a blessed week ahead! =)
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I bought some mind-enriching books to keep my mind occupied with good things. Oh yes, including my fav book, the Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer. Felt that I need to re-read the whole book to re-align my thinking patterns ^^ I read that book when I was back at home, it's my Mum's & I didn't bring it over here so that my sisters back at home get to read it too. Good things are meant to be shared with others ^^.
p/s: the book is not expensive, I bought it for about $18 only, what the heck, I would've spent the money on shoes & bags & it would have cost me way more than that hehe...
The other book seems very interesting too but will share a little more about it once I've started reading yet. Can't wait to get my hands or rather eyes on them but wait....one step at a time~
What I'm trying to say is to never stop trying. If you want to do something then just get on with it! Time for some action ;)
Like today, I have been procastinating on my jogging sessions but yeah finally! - Finished work at 5.30pm today & reached home around 6.30pm.
Gulped some water down my throat & off I went for my jog. When you've not been jogging for quite some time the body loses it's momentum...The lack of stamina...tsk* T_T
It wasn't easy. Less than 3 minutes & I already felt tired lol =P
Immediately switched to plan B lol - interval training: 5 minutes of running & walking each, back-to-back, believe me...good workout *_* lasted for about 30 minutes. That was followed by resistance training & yay~ my dumbbells are finally used again after so long hehe...
Yeah...laziness kills a lot of good stuff, think about it! We miss out on so many good things because we feel lazy. Hmmm... ;)
Oh...which reminds me... ^^ This whole determination can only last with good DISCIPLINE
Then one of the main thing that stops us is LAZINESS...
We are being deceived to think that it is alright to be lazy.
I think we all underestimate what laziness can do to us, & what it stops us from receiving- good things too usually!
When we think about it, laziness lead to or may be directly or indirectly connected to procastination, indifference, obesity, health problems, etc etc...
I leave the rest to your imagination...
May all of you have a blessed week ahead! =)
*****
Friday, May 20, 2011
Stay Focused
After another long & tiring day of work, I came home tired. The figures at work are not looking good & honestly I am worried, after all, I need to perform during my probation period.
Thanks to affordable overseas call, he is just a call away. I called home :)
After talking to my dad, I immediately remember what he used to tell me & my siblings. In order to succeed in anything, we need to stay focused. I have to agree 100% with that.
There are many distractions everywhere & I shouldn't have let that stop me from going to where I want to go.
I remembered what I came here to do.
I came here to keep a promise & I intend to keep that promise.
I left home to take a career path that I myself have chosen.
This realization left me bursting with joy & determination & I want to remember this feeling. Because I know that when I remember my purpose I will know that all that I am going through right now will be worth it. There is a time to sow the seeds & there is a time to harvest the fruits of labour.
We can hope for what is yet to come for who hopes for what they already have?
All I have to do now is stay focused!
To all my of you reading this now, if you feel like giving up on something really important to you, don't give up!
I for one, am not giving up!
I'm going to repeat this over & over again till it's stuck in my head, after all, everything begins in the mind, lol
May God bless us all & have a great weekend everyone :)
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Thanks to affordable overseas call, he is just a call away. I called home :)
After talking to my dad, I immediately remember what he used to tell me & my siblings. In order to succeed in anything, we need to stay focused. I have to agree 100% with that.
There are many distractions everywhere & I shouldn't have let that stop me from going to where I want to go.
I remembered what I came here to do.
I came here to keep a promise & I intend to keep that promise.
I left home to take a career path that I myself have chosen.
This realization left me bursting with joy & determination & I want to remember this feeling. Because I know that when I remember my purpose I will know that all that I am going through right now will be worth it. There is a time to sow the seeds & there is a time to harvest the fruits of labour.
We can hope for what is yet to come for who hopes for what they already have?
All I have to do now is stay focused!
To all my of you reading this now, if you feel like giving up on something really important to you, don't give up!
I for one, am not giving up!
I'm going to repeat this over & over again till it's stuck in my head, after all, everything begins in the mind, lol
May God bless us all & have a great weekend everyone :)
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Thursday, May 19, 2011
Moving Forward!!!
It has been 2 months & 2 days since starting my new job.
Stress has been building up in me ever since day one. I have "refreshed" myself time & again but new issues keep on coming up & I felt that I was almost at the verge of letting go.
The incidents & circumstances have blinded me so badly, I have failed to see.
That was until two days ago when my trainer & I had a talk after a recent training session on service (as mentioned in my previous posts, one of the issues I had was being under-trained).
From this I came to understand her & her situation & vice versa. From here everything fell into place, & I believe it is the work of the Lord. I was stuck in a hole & felt lost with no way out. But just like that - when light comes into the picture, I was able to see!
Now the situation remains more or less the "same", further official training will only come in much later, "stuff" still happens, but with Jesus with me & with the Holy Spirit's guidance, I am able to have a different perspective. I will just have to learn how to take one step at a time! ^^
I will need to be "transfigured" again & again, this is not the end of troubles & trials. But, I am happy to know that God is real & is here & will be there when I need Him (all the time, that means huh? =P)
Oh...& looking at it as a whole, I now realized I did make some progress! I still have a long way to go but thank God I was not where I used to be! Amazing how sometimes I just get so worked up in the whole mess that I forget again & again to see the good things. Tsk...just gotta remind me of that time & again ;)
So...also the same reminder for everyone, when you feel frustrated, stop! Drop whatever you're doing for a second & breathe!! Think of what you've been upto for the past couple of weeks or months & see honestly how you've been doing. If you see progress (no matter how small) then give yourself a pat & be happy. If not, then you need to do something about it!
I have come into the world as light, to prevent anyone who believes in me from staying in the dark any more - John 12:46
God bless you, everyone! :)
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Stress has been building up in me ever since day one. I have "refreshed" myself time & again but new issues keep on coming up & I felt that I was almost at the verge of letting go.
The incidents & circumstances have blinded me so badly, I have failed to see.
That was until two days ago when my trainer & I had a talk after a recent training session on service (as mentioned in my previous posts, one of the issues I had was being under-trained).
From this I came to understand her & her situation & vice versa. From here everything fell into place, & I believe it is the work of the Lord. I was stuck in a hole & felt lost with no way out. But just like that - when light comes into the picture, I was able to see!
Now the situation remains more or less the "same", further official training will only come in much later, "stuff" still happens, but with Jesus with me & with the Holy Spirit's guidance, I am able to have a different perspective. I will just have to learn how to take one step at a time! ^^
I will need to be "transfigured" again & again, this is not the end of troubles & trials. But, I am happy to know that God is real & is here & will be there when I need Him (all the time, that means huh? =P)
Oh...& looking at it as a whole, I now realized I did make some progress! I still have a long way to go but thank God I was not where I used to be! Amazing how sometimes I just get so worked up in the whole mess that I forget again & again to see the good things. Tsk...just gotta remind me of that time & again ;)
So...also the same reminder for everyone, when you feel frustrated, stop! Drop whatever you're doing for a second & breathe!! Think of what you've been upto for the past couple of weeks or months & see honestly how you've been doing. If you see progress (no matter how small) then give yourself a pat & be happy. If not, then you need to do something about it!
I have come into the world as light, to prevent anyone who believes in me from staying in the dark any more - John 12:46
God bless you, everyone! :)
*****
Monday, May 16, 2011
Makeup & Makeup
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| Balancing Cleansing Oil, Aya Takano limited edition verdict = awesome!! removes all makeup including waterproof eyeliners n mascaras with ease! ^^ |
Wohooooo~ finally my first set of Shu Uemura make up & accessories! xD
Will expand my collection further but not so soon, coz I have just busted my pocket on these items haha...
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| Limited Edition Aya Takano makeup pallette =) |
Pallettes are always worth the purchase because:-
1. colours are ready matched
2. sometimes (most of the time actually, haha..) the colours are limited edition
3. cheaper than buying each item individually
:))
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| Selected four interesting colours |
They have very nice eye shadow colours,
& the best part is they stay on for the day ^^
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| Aya Takano limited edition faux lash, a cute packaging... a lil too cute for me but hey, what the heck! Take a look at the item inside! =P |
Tadaaa~ So WOW~ got it at a very VERY special price, so just gotta own em!
This will be just a collection, don't think I will use it lol! =P
p/s: look at all the stickers on that plastic strip, can actually paste em on the lash haha...
You'd have to admit, Japanese are really good at these detailed stuff ^^
What can I say? Goodbye BB, helloooo Shu Uemura~ ;P
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
You Are Not Alone
Have you ever been in a situation where you wanted so badly
to do something, but you know there is nothing you could do about it.
Have you ever felt the pain of feeling helpless, powerless...
Have you ever questioned your sense of worth?
Fret not,
even if in our own eyes, we are worthless,
that is not the case in God's eyes.
God thinks that we are worth the prize, sacrifizing His only beloved Son.
He looked down from heaven & watched as the people crucified His only beloved Son. Watched, as His son cried out to Him in agony, "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?"
In one of the sermons, the priest enlightened us to try to understand how God must have felt, watching Jesus undergo tremendous pain & suffering but not being able to do anything about it, unable to help, unable to relieve Jesus' pain & suffering. Jesus too - He was betrayed by His closest disciples & friends, handed over to be humiliated & tormented. He was charged for a crime He did not commit.
The good news is that Jesus has redeemed us! He thinks that we are worth the price.
As said by Joyce Meyer, "try to separate your self-worth from what you can do, after all, Christians are called to be BELIEVERS not PERFORMERS".
also, "Don't let the way other people treat you determine your worth & value".
The next time you feel helpless, know you are not alone, God sees our heart & understands our pain. That something may have happened to serve for something bigger. He has plans for each one of us.
Then they said to Him, 'What must we do if we are to carry out God's work?'
Jesus gave them his answer, 'This is carrying out God's work: you must believe in the one He has sent.'
John 6:28-29
God bless! :)
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to do something, but you know there is nothing you could do about it.
Have you ever felt the pain of feeling helpless, powerless...
Have you ever questioned your sense of worth?
Fret not,
even if in our own eyes, we are worthless,
that is not the case in God's eyes.
God thinks that we are worth the prize, sacrifizing His only beloved Son.
He looked down from heaven & watched as the people crucified His only beloved Son. Watched, as His son cried out to Him in agony, "My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?"
In one of the sermons, the priest enlightened us to try to understand how God must have felt, watching Jesus undergo tremendous pain & suffering but not being able to do anything about it, unable to help, unable to relieve Jesus' pain & suffering. Jesus too - He was betrayed by His closest disciples & friends, handed over to be humiliated & tormented. He was charged for a crime He did not commit.
The good news is that Jesus has redeemed us! He thinks that we are worth the price.
As said by Joyce Meyer, "try to separate your self-worth from what you can do, after all, Christians are called to be BELIEVERS not PERFORMERS".
also, "Don't let the way other people treat you determine your worth & value".
The next time you feel helpless, know you are not alone, God sees our heart & understands our pain. That something may have happened to serve for something bigger. He has plans for each one of us.
Then they said to Him, 'What must we do if we are to carry out God's work?'
Jesus gave them his answer, 'This is carrying out God's work: you must believe in the one He has sent.'
John 6:28-29
God bless! :)
*****
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Cycling = awesome fun
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| Ryna |
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| Elva |
Today I went cycling with my 2 friends at East Coast Park, Singapore. We reached around 4.30pm but because of the cloudy sky it wasn't as sunny as usual. (Great! I can't stand the hot weather lol! ) Despite out tight schedule we managed to make some time today ^^
We were so excited when we started off & took some pictures haha! =P
When it drizzled we didn't care & proceeded with our plans but in less than 5 minutes it rained cats n dogs!
We ran to the nearest shelter but when it looked like the rain would not stop for a while, we decided to run to another shelter, with seats. By the time we seated ourlseves down we were soaking wet!
But that didn't dampen our spirits!
We just prayed the rain would stop soon...
After about an hour, the rain finally stopped (thank you Jesus! ^^),
ok, not really.. it was still drizzling lightly but what the heck!!
ok, not really.. it was still drizzling lightly but what the heck!!
Off we went! =P
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| Bedok Jetty |
We couldn't stop laughing throughout the journey because we keep cracking each other up. Plus, it has been a long long time since my 2 friends have cycled. Really long, one of them hasn't cycled in 10 years!
We cycled our way to Bedok Jetty. Despite the name we are still in the East Coast area, not Bedok (for who knows what reason).
Here we took a quick water break & snapped a few more shots :)
When we were done, the sun has already set...
the air was fresh unlike the usual dusty city air...
Had an awesome time cycling yet again!
Great way to hang out with friends, de-stress & burn some calories ;)
Cycling is fun, but cycling with friends doubles the fun!
Looking forward to come here again :)
Monday, May 2, 2011
Very Annoyed
It's very annoying to have someone constantly finding your faults. This certain somebody questions me accusively for almost every small little errors there are. I admit I make mistakes sometimes but I KNOW I am allowed to have a few misses. For the xxth time, it wasn't me!! Grrr...
Note to any leader: Don't just say it DO IT! People don't follow what you say if you're not willing to do it yourself!
I know I should keep my eye on the prize instead of these few bumps on the road but man, am I feeling the limit of my patience here!
Thank God it is my off day for the next 2 days! I need a break from this madness temporarily.....
Note to any leader: Don't just say it DO IT! People don't follow what you say if you're not willing to do it yourself!
I know I should keep my eye on the prize instead of these few bumps on the road but man, am I feeling the limit of my patience here!
Thank God it is my off day for the next 2 days! I need a break from this madness temporarily.....
Friday, April 29, 2011
Choices
The month of April is coming to an end & just like that - a quarter of a year has passed. Time is precious.
Life is short.
Yesterday's gone,
& tomorrow may never be mine.
That is why it is so important not to delay any longer!
As read in an article shared by my close friend Dianne, when we go out to the world, we are inevitably exposed to the ways of the world & its temptations. Many are lukewarm, trying to unite the love of God & the love of the world, to unite religion & the practices of the world.
Naturally, we want to stay in our comfort zone. Don't we always want the easy way out?
However, deep down, I believe we know it doesn't work that way. Because in our efforts of being lukewarm, we will eventually encounter a situation where we have to decide to go one way or another. At the crossroads, there would be a wide road & a narrow road.
The choice is ours.
"More will depend upon the state of the heart — than the situation in which you are placed"
The whole article can be found in the link below:
http://gracegems.org/Smith4/daniel.htm
Believe me, it may be a long article but every line is worth your time reading it! :)
God bless :)
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Life is short.
Yesterday's gone,
& tomorrow may never be mine.
That is why it is so important not to delay any longer!
As read in an article shared by my close friend Dianne, when we go out to the world, we are inevitably exposed to the ways of the world & its temptations. Many are lukewarm, trying to unite the love of God & the love of the world, to unite religion & the practices of the world.
Naturally, we want to stay in our comfort zone. Don't we always want the easy way out?
However, deep down, I believe we know it doesn't work that way. Because in our efforts of being lukewarm, we will eventually encounter a situation where we have to decide to go one way or another. At the crossroads, there would be a wide road & a narrow road.
The choice is ours.
"More will depend upon the state of the heart — than the situation in which you are placed"
The whole article can be found in the link below:
http://gracegems.org/Smith4/daniel.htm
Believe me, it may be a long article but every line is worth your time reading it! :)
God bless :)
*****
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Just Bananas...
As I was running late this morning I had no time to have breakast. I managed, though, to grab 2 bananas, one for me to eat & another for my colleague who just texted me, informing me that she may be late too lol!
Flagged for a cab & was settling down on the seat, styled my hair (yes, in the cab! lol) & finally took a bite off my banana... (p/s: the cab driver seemed a little cranky too but still he allowed me to eat inside his car, so all's fine...)
but.....the banana was far from ripe...just plain awful...the bitter powdery taste was stuck on my throat for a while...urgh...
Not to waste the other banana, I gave it to the cab driver. To my surprise he suddenly brightened up & accepted it very gratefully, thanking me a few times. Even after explaining to him that it wasn't ripe yet he couldn't care less about it.
Small things may surprisingly do wonders huh? Well, in this case the cab driver was perhaps just crazy over bananas haha =D
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Flagged for a cab & was settling down on the seat, styled my hair (yes, in the cab! lol) & finally took a bite off my banana... (p/s: the cab driver seemed a little cranky too but still he allowed me to eat inside his car, so all's fine...)
but.....the banana was far from ripe...just plain awful...the bitter powdery taste was stuck on my throat for a while...urgh...
Not to waste the other banana, I gave it to the cab driver. To my surprise he suddenly brightened up & accepted it very gratefully, thanking me a few times. Even after explaining to him that it wasn't ripe yet he couldn't care less about it.
Small things may surprisingly do wonders huh? Well, in this case the cab driver was perhaps just crazy over bananas haha =D
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Monday, April 18, 2011
Journey
by Corrinne May
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you
*****
Love...
touches the heart
heals the broken heart
lifts the spirit
makes one feel secure
is selfless
"is kind
it does not envy
it does not boast"
it does not harm
it takes no notice of imperfections;
sometimes you love someone too much to give them what they want
instead you want to give them what they really need.
God's love came to perfection in His son Jesus:
"There is no greater love than for one to die for another especially when the latter is undeserving"
In His eyes we are His loved ones, as imperfect as we are
He considered us His children
So rejoice & be glad!
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Dedicated to my dearest family & friends from the bottom of my heart
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heals the broken heart
lifts the spirit
makes one feel secure
is selfless
"is kind
it does not envy
it does not boast"
it does not harm
it takes no notice of imperfections;
sometimes you love someone too much to give them what they want
instead you want to give them what they really need.
God's love came to perfection in His son Jesus:
"There is no greater love than for one to die for another especially when the latter is undeserving"
In His eyes we are His loved ones, as imperfect as we are
He considered us His children
So rejoice & be glad!
*****
Dedicated to my dearest family & friends from the bottom of my heart
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Saturday, April 16, 2011
A Close Call
I am not allowed to take leave in June & November to Dec.
Well, that wouldn't be a problem if my sister's wedding which happens to be taking place in Sabah, is not in June...and...if my family's only most important time of the year is not Christmas...
A new rule to say we are not to have our mobile phones with us in our pockets seemed unpractical too. I can understand if we are not allowed to use our mobile at the counter, by all means! Honestly I am not comfortable with the idea of placing my mobile just in the the counter drawers especially when an incident of a missing item has happened not too long ago.
Also, incidents of superiors not keeping their words not once or twice, just plain dissappointing. "Small" matters or not I find a person untrustworthy if they do not honour their promises.
As work ended I felt even worse. I was very moody. Everyone around me at the train seem to irritate me. (Haha...ok now it seems funny...)
But well,
Perspective changes everything.
I could continue feeling bad about how my circumstances are, & worry about how I make progress from here.
Just before I reached home, it was around 11.30pm when I got a call from one of my ex-colleague. We had a long talk. One of the things that she talked about was how things are at her workplace. Cutting the story short, things were as bad as they were when I was still there if not worse.
Was it a coincidence for that phone call to come at such a late hour?
Now, I think it meant something more than just a chat with a good friend.
Once I cooled down a little, I decided to blog n blab (haha...) & saw Mad's recent post - a peek at some cancer patients lives & circumstances.
Perspective changes everything, really.
It's easy to fall into self-pity argh...but thank God for my wonderful friends! :)
Amazing how He speaks to us in so many different ways.
There are really so much more things to be happy about & it would be a waste to forget them all just because of some "small stuff"! Everything seemed like a "big thing" till we take a step back & look at the bigger picture. As long as we are confined in our own world, it will be difficult.
Yes, perspective changes everything.
Mad mentioned that one of the patient said that he has grown closer to his family since the diagnosis.
My circumstances, both past & present cannot even compare with any one of these individuals. When we put it that way, it is humbling.
Lesson learned - want what I have & be content. Like the saying, "there can never be enough for a person's greed".
Need to focus on doing my very best! :)
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Too much is not too good afterall...
The past few days has been tiring & stressful, in fact, I did not realize it only till the day before yesterday. Thank God for revealling this blind spot of mine! When I looked back, I realized I was unconciously trying to destress - I've started to eat a whole lot more again & have also been craving for lotsa food - chocolates, japanese food, fried food, you name it...(Stress is proven to induce cravings, especially for high calorie food).
Just recently I have also been playing an online game & was immediately addicted to it! Everytime I started I wouldn't stop till I've played for hours & hours. Once I even played from right after dinner till 2am... Honestly I realized that it wasn't right but then I convinced myself that I should "pamper myself since I have been working so hard".
Of course it is alright to pamper myself but it was simply overdone. Immediately I can feel the impact on no one else but myself. Satisfying the cravings did not make me happier, because to keep myself "happy" that way, I had to keep on "feeding on" the cravings. Even so, the "happiness" lasted for only a moment.
As written in the book "Approval Addiction" by Joyce Meyer ( a very interesting book, I'd say ), the only way to stop an addiction is to refuse to feed the addiction! True enough, when I continued to refuse to feed my impulsive cravings, the urge has been very much weakened & I feel more at ease now.
Is not this the sort of fast that pleases Me: to break unjust fetters, to undo the thongs of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free, and to break all yokes?
Is it not sharing your food with the hungry, & sheltering the homeless poor; if you see someone lacking clothes, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own kin?
Then your light will blaze out like the dawn and your wound be quickly healed over. Saving justice will go ahead of you and Yahweh's glory come behind you
Then you will cry for help and Yahweh will answer; you will call and He will say, 'I am here.' Isaiah 58:6-9
It's not too late to start now :)
However as the title of this post implies, moderation & self-control is the point here, I will still eat my favourite foods & still play my games but all in moderation. I can go without them & not feel uncomfortable :)
I know by experience that for long time habits & addictions, it is even harder to quit! Of course! It only makes sense that a certain addiction which say has been rooted in for 10 years, may also take years to quit. It is not easy but it is not impossible. Nothing is greater than the love of God.
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?" Romans 8:35
"If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and He knows everything." 1 John 3:20
My poor blog has been neglected due to my new interests haha...I'm back again! So much more to learn & share with all my dearest family & friends :)
Have a great day everyone! :)
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Supper
Last Monday I had a great time meeting up with my ex-colleagues for late supper at Newton Food Centre.
There were many many stalls & the staff were agressive (tourists usually get "slaughtered" here...) Thanks to Sandy, we knew which stall serves the best food :))
I just had to have chicken satay & ketupat, & glad we did ordered it...it was well done, gravy was great too... n the honey bbq chicken wings...mmmn~ absolutely delishh~ =P
Sambal kangkong - looks can be deceiving...it looks harmless enough but phew* was it SPICY!!
The fried carrot cake (black sauce) was great but one of my fav has got to be the fried mantou (the bottom right of the above pic)..its slightly crisp outside but the inside is so soft & moist~ best eaten while warm... ^^
Sambal cuttlefish ~ also spicy but not as spicy as the kang kong haha... with all these food, best to go with a cup of iced sugarcane drink...so refreshing~ ^^
Hey, we also had grilled stingray! one of the best dishes out of all we ordered, how could I miss out on taking that? Must be too hungry already then, haha.. =P
My ex-colleagues, a great & fun bunch of people ^^
Oh yeah...it was a fulfilling off day...can't wait for my next off day haha =P
Monday, March 28, 2011
Off Day. Don't we always look forward to it =3
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Finally...! My off day has arrived after a busy & tiring week! Painful too - still not used to wearing covered heels...ouch....
Looking back now, the week has been great! I have learned many things from training & the counter & have so far been able to over-achieve my sales target & I know I owe it to the help & guidance from my colleagues especially Angeline & Lynn. I'm so blessed to have met them even just for 1 day ( I was asked to cover the shortage of man power at a different outlet for that 1 day) & last but NOT least I owe it all to God :)
As mentioned in the book, The Battlefiled of the Mind, "everthing - good things & things that seem to be a bad thing now will eventually work out for something good". I'm beginning to understand better what it meant. As mentioned in my previous post, things headed to a rough start but then these events lead to greater blessings. Better than IF the "bad things" did not happen at all.
When something bad happens, it is our nature to forget all the good things that we have experienced previously. So unless we purposely think of good & happy thoughts, recalling all the good times that we have had, it is not difficult to fall into despair. The longer we dwell on negative thoughts, the easier it is to fall into "self-pity". So once you realize the chain of negative thoughts coming into mind, STOP! ...and think happy thoughts instead :)
As my dear friend Dianne said recently, When we "think" about God's goodness and all He's done for us, we will overflow with gratefulness, giving Him "thanks" When we are positive, we give off positive vibes, when we are negative...you know what happens, imagine staying around a pessimist...
Sooo....to prep myself up for the week to come, will enjoy myself today hehe...planning to go for a pedicure after lunch. Looking forward to the gathering with my ex-colleagues later at night too, we're having steamboat~ yummmm~ :P
Till next time~ ;)
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Experience victory
This is my first post after commencing work, yes...it has been a while :)
Another job in sales line - and so I was enthusiastic & eager to learn, at the same time I mentally prepared myself for whatever is to come, good or bad. The excitement of course was because, finally...! I get to have a job in my line of interest ~make up ^^
Training was very interesting & the trainer was very good. However time was of essence & so the basics was covered in 3 sessions, each lasted only about 4-5 hours long. A lot of theories but almost no chance for trainees for practicals. However we did manage to see almost all of their product range & try some of em. So basically it was like a crash course. Tiring but fulfilling ^^
My first day was rough. I was on morning shift with the counter supervisor, whom I am supposed to be attached to during my probation, however she was almost an hour late (she informed me only 10-15mins before reporting time) & I only found out about the staff entrance until later. The disheartening part was that she seemed very relunctant to teach even after I explained to her that I only underwent 1 out of 3 sessions of training then.
I also asked about the sales target that I have to fulfill & was explained about the commissions & stuff. I was told that since I am still unfamiliar with the products, I will not bear the target yet & so...whatever sales I make for now will be given to the other staff.
My supervisor was not in for the next two days after but things seemed very awkward even with my other two colleagues... They too seemed reluctant to share their knowledge. When I asked, they would say something like, "didn't you learn this during training?". We did engage into non-work conversations briefly but the atmosphere was still....awkward...haha...
On the third day, just before knocking off from work, my colleague (not my supervisor) asked me if I knew how to key-in sales into the systme. When I said no, she was very shocked. She said I usually have to start bearing the target after completion of training! Meaning I have to start the following day.
I was utterly stunned! That was news to me! But still I asked them to show me how to key-in a sale. Instead of showing me, my two colleagues discussed among themselves as if I was invisible, reasoning that it is very difficult to teach me how to do it if I don't know the item codes etc... Furthermore, I was to be stationed at another outlet (Orchard outlet) from the following day till the end of March except coming Friday.
That was it. I was angry! Many things was running through my mind. I recall not hiding the fact that I was very irritated but still in a controlled tone, asking why I am not updated about anything???(regarding myself) Suddenly one became nervous & the other obviously trying to avoid the mess. Seeing that they could provide the answers I left it at that.
I left work, but my mind did not. It went wild, the more I thought about it, the more pissed I became. I was extremely tempted to give my supervisor a call & demand an explanation & to straighten things out once & for all! But something was stopping me to make that phone call. So instead, I called my dad.
I explained to him what happened & he listened intently. He advised me to wait & see what happens tomorrow at the other outlet. I agreed. Deep down, I know I would say unnecessary things or hurting things while I'm angry. I asked the Lord for help & for the strength to forgive my colleagues.
Today came & I went to work, happy to know that at least I do not have see those colleagues at least for now. I was early & about to start work when I received a call from the Orchard outlet, asking me to help out at another outlet in Orchard (which was just somewhere opposite the road) due to shortage of man power.
By the grace of God, I kept a positive attitude... & guess what? The people over there are great to work with! There were two of them & their personalities differ greatly from the other. One was gentle, while the other seemed bossy & unfriendly at first. Even though I was only to help out at their outlet for a day, they are willing to teach me & we even did role plays ^^
The other amazing thing is that I served a customer & wanted to give the sale to one of them but the "bossy" one questioned it. She then called the in charge (of all the managers) & asked for my status. As a result, she got a staff ID for me & told me that from then onwards, whatever sales I closed belongs to me even if I am not bearing my sales target yet. She also advised me to make sure I find out clearly about the arrangements etc when I did not even tell her about the incidences. I strongly believe that God arranged for me to be called to that outlet somehow. Thank you Jesus! :)
My point of sharing this experience is to testify. One of our challenges is to put our trust in Him in all things. We like to do things our way, but the wisdom of the world is foolishness to God, while the world cannot comprehend the wisdom of God. When we let the Lord lead us, we will see great things. Sometimes it will be a longer wait, but if we persevere & stay hopeful we will eventually experience victory in life.
When I am not sure of what to do, or when I get impatient, I would pray, "Lord, I do not want to run ahead of You nor do I want to fall behind You, help me to wait patiently on you" (taken from the book, Battlefield of the Mind, by Joyce Meyer)
May this experience encourage you as much as it did for me. God bless you :)
Another job in sales line - and so I was enthusiastic & eager to learn, at the same time I mentally prepared myself for whatever is to come, good or bad. The excitement of course was because, finally...! I get to have a job in my line of interest ~make up ^^
Training was very interesting & the trainer was very good. However time was of essence & so the basics was covered in 3 sessions, each lasted only about 4-5 hours long. A lot of theories but almost no chance for trainees for practicals. However we did manage to see almost all of their product range & try some of em. So basically it was like a crash course. Tiring but fulfilling ^^
My first day was rough. I was on morning shift with the counter supervisor, whom I am supposed to be attached to during my probation, however she was almost an hour late (she informed me only 10-15mins before reporting time) & I only found out about the staff entrance until later. The disheartening part was that she seemed very relunctant to teach even after I explained to her that I only underwent 1 out of 3 sessions of training then.
I also asked about the sales target that I have to fulfill & was explained about the commissions & stuff. I was told that since I am still unfamiliar with the products, I will not bear the target yet & so...whatever sales I make for now will be given to the other staff.
My supervisor was not in for the next two days after but things seemed very awkward even with my other two colleagues... They too seemed reluctant to share their knowledge. When I asked, they would say something like, "didn't you learn this during training?". We did engage into non-work conversations briefly but the atmosphere was still....awkward...haha...
On the third day, just before knocking off from work, my colleague (not my supervisor) asked me if I knew how to key-in sales into the systme. When I said no, she was very shocked. She said I usually have to start bearing the target after completion of training! Meaning I have to start the following day.
I was utterly stunned! That was news to me! But still I asked them to show me how to key-in a sale. Instead of showing me, my two colleagues discussed among themselves as if I was invisible, reasoning that it is very difficult to teach me how to do it if I don't know the item codes etc... Furthermore, I was to be stationed at another outlet (Orchard outlet) from the following day till the end of March except coming Friday.
That was it. I was angry! Many things was running through my mind. I recall not hiding the fact that I was very irritated but still in a controlled tone, asking why I am not updated about anything???(regarding myself) Suddenly one became nervous & the other obviously trying to avoid the mess. Seeing that they could provide the answers I left it at that.
I left work, but my mind did not. It went wild, the more I thought about it, the more pissed I became. I was extremely tempted to give my supervisor a call & demand an explanation & to straighten things out once & for all! But something was stopping me to make that phone call. So instead, I called my dad.
I explained to him what happened & he listened intently. He advised me to wait & see what happens tomorrow at the other outlet. I agreed. Deep down, I know I would say unnecessary things or hurting things while I'm angry. I asked the Lord for help & for the strength to forgive my colleagues.
Today came & I went to work, happy to know that at least I do not have see those colleagues at least for now. I was early & about to start work when I received a call from the Orchard outlet, asking me to help out at another outlet in Orchard (which was just somewhere opposite the road) due to shortage of man power.
By the grace of God, I kept a positive attitude... & guess what? The people over there are great to work with! There were two of them & their personalities differ greatly from the other. One was gentle, while the other seemed bossy & unfriendly at first. Even though I was only to help out at their outlet for a day, they are willing to teach me & we even did role plays ^^
The other amazing thing is that I served a customer & wanted to give the sale to one of them but the "bossy" one questioned it. She then called the in charge (of all the managers) & asked for my status. As a result, she got a staff ID for me & told me that from then onwards, whatever sales I closed belongs to me even if I am not bearing my sales target yet. She also advised me to make sure I find out clearly about the arrangements etc when I did not even tell her about the incidences. I strongly believe that God arranged for me to be called to that outlet somehow. Thank you Jesus! :)
My point of sharing this experience is to testify. One of our challenges is to put our trust in Him in all things. We like to do things our way, but the wisdom of the world is foolishness to God, while the world cannot comprehend the wisdom of God. When we let the Lord lead us, we will see great things. Sometimes it will be a longer wait, but if we persevere & stay hopeful we will eventually experience victory in life.
When I am not sure of what to do, or when I get impatient, I would pray, "Lord, I do not want to run ahead of You nor do I want to fall behind You, help me to wait patiently on you" (taken from the book, Battlefield of the Mind, by Joyce Meyer)
May this experience encourage you as much as it did for me. God bless you :)
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Colours
This evening I had a great time Art Jamming with others. Its basically a 2.5 hours freestyle painting & ANYONE can join (as long as you register, that is haha =P). It happens at My Art Space, a cool & cosy studio/gallery, usually every end of the month accompanied by some cool professional painters. I know cos sometime last year I joined their Oil Painting Classes. Awesome place & great people ^^
I can go on & on but really...a picture is worth a thousand words...so click the link below for all the info on My Art Space's fb account :)
For the usual Art Jamming sessions, we paint as we enjoy a glass of wine whilst listening to nice music, usually they play some nice jazzy music for us "painters" to get into the mood.
Well, today's session was a little different... we painted outdoors & surrounding us was a pretty setting of floral arrangements forming shapes like a high heel, a handbag even one in a shape of specs! ...all these right infront of Ion Orchard lol..., great way to promote the Arts huh? ^^ (oh, no wine today lol! totally don't mind cos the last time I couldn't even finish my one glass...)
The event attracted some or more & members of the public could freely look around. Very happy to see them interested & responding, some commented & others asked questions. It was interesting to see all the reactions.
Ok...so here's my artwork created at today's Art Jamming session, inspired by the surroundings. A play of colours & tones, acrylic paint on canvas measuring 16"x20". I'm quite happy with the outcome ^^
And some more...
would like to share another painting, painted at an Art Jamming session last July
click on the link below to view. Sorry...I did not take my own pictures...I'll start once I get a better camera hehe... ^^
So...care to join me at the next Art Jamming? It'll be smashing, I promise... :))
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Don't Stop ...
Thus says the Lord:
For, as the rain and the snow come down from the sky and do not return before having watered the earth, fertilising it and making it germinate to provide seed for the sower and food to eat,
so it is with the word that goes from my mouth: it will not return to me unfulfilled or before having carried out my good pleasure and having achieved what it was sent to do.
Isaiah 55:10-11
*Germinate means to sprout or produce buds; or to cause to grow (taken from wiktionary.com )
My parents made it a point for me & my siblings to read the Word daily since my teenage years. It wasn't easy at first as I then found no point in doing so, I found it a drag and a troublesome chore! We basically had no choice then, as they went to the extent of having a short bible study after dinner everyday. We would take turns to read the daily readings & each given a chance to share their thoughts.
Subsequently it became habitual for me to read the Word daily. It went on even after we stopped having the after-dinner bible study sessions. I can't recall when it started but I started to find comfort in reading the Word. Now I am thankful & grateful that my parents did what they did ^^
Well, there would still be times when I feel lazy, or just don't feel like it, or when I feel that it's boring & when I don't understand...(we're humans...it's bound to happen ^^) it is a good time to go back to Isaiah 55:10-11. If we continue to press on in faith, surely we will one day reap what we have sown? Even a parched land will bear sprouts when rained down continuously.
Oh, and usually sprouts don't shoot up immediately ;) We have to be patient (patience is wayyyy underrated, if u ask me) Patience means to keep a good atitude while waiting (as I recall mentioned in the book- Battlefield of the Mind, by Joyce Meyer).
Not easy? I agree. I am guilty of being an impatient person myself especially when I'm in a bad mood haha... But that doesn't stop me from trying. Patience, I believe is a matter of choice, & thankfully...can be gained by experience & practice (see how elderly people are generally more patient).
It all comes down to this - In all circumstances, seek God, pray. Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened to you.
God bless :)
For, as the rain and the snow come down from the sky and do not return before having watered the earth, fertilising it and making it germinate to provide seed for the sower and food to eat,
so it is with the word that goes from my mouth: it will not return to me unfulfilled or before having carried out my good pleasure and having achieved what it was sent to do.
Isaiah 55:10-11
*Germinate means to sprout or produce buds; or to cause to grow (taken from wiktionary.com )
My parents made it a point for me & my siblings to read the Word daily since my teenage years. It wasn't easy at first as I then found no point in doing so, I found it a drag and a troublesome chore! We basically had no choice then, as they went to the extent of having a short bible study after dinner everyday. We would take turns to read the daily readings & each given a chance to share their thoughts.
Subsequently it became habitual for me to read the Word daily. It went on even after we stopped having the after-dinner bible study sessions. I can't recall when it started but I started to find comfort in reading the Word. Now I am thankful & grateful that my parents did what they did ^^
Well, there would still be times when I feel lazy, or just don't feel like it, or when I feel that it's boring & when I don't understand...(we're humans...it's bound to happen ^^) it is a good time to go back to Isaiah 55:10-11. If we continue to press on in faith, surely we will one day reap what we have sown? Even a parched land will bear sprouts when rained down continuously.
Oh, and usually sprouts don't shoot up immediately ;) We have to be patient (patience is wayyyy underrated, if u ask me) Patience means to keep a good atitude while waiting (as I recall mentioned in the book- Battlefield of the Mind, by Joyce Meyer).
Not easy? I agree. I am guilty of being an impatient person myself especially when I'm in a bad mood haha... But that doesn't stop me from trying. Patience, I believe is a matter of choice, & thankfully...can be gained by experience & practice (see how elderly people are generally more patient).
It all comes down to this - In all circumstances, seek God, pray. Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened to you.
God bless :)
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Any of these seem familiar...? ^^
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| Iced gems, one of my fav... ^^ |
Today I was offered a bunch of snacks & among the heap was iced gems! ( Didn't even know its name until today lol) Just reminded me of all those chilhood goodies I used to munch on nyummm...Didn't take a pic, too lazy haha... instead, got the images from google =P
Yan yan...my sis used to wrap it up along with other goodies every Christmas n me n my younger sisters would be super excited haha...Then there's haw flakes, i still see these at supermarkets in kk but rarely tho...
Mamee monster!!! one of my fav! haha i like to eat it without the seasoning, feel like having some now haha... I remember Apollo too but not the other stuff shown along with it...
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| used to buy these from the bread vendor ^^ |
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| "Ngikit piang" which directly translated, means ear biscuits, my bro's fav (last time...at least...) ^^ |
Doesn't this bring back memories? Whats's your fav childhood snack? :)
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Full & grateful lol...
Something unexpected happened today & I didn't know how to handle it but many thanks to my bro for kinda saving the day, it made me think, hey...he is a lot more matured than I thought he was (sorry bro...haha...). I did not know what to do & now everything turned out fine. So proud of him, he remained cool about everything. It made me think, how I usually would react in other incidents may have not been the best thing to do... Today was a great reminder that I have a long long way to go but I am also glad to know that God will not leave me to battle on my own. He will show the way & speak to me in many ways - through people, His Word, etc... IF only I am willing to listen. I am currently quite at peace since I only start work by next week. I only pray that once the "war" starts, when I will most definitely encounter many types of individuals, situations or whatever, when it will be once again a busy busy busy period, I will remember, & listen.
To everyone - lets strive to win the war, starting with the war in our minds! ^^
To everyone - lets strive to win the war, starting with the war in our minds! ^^
Friday, March 4, 2011
Perception & reasoning
At last, a new art piece after a long long time...a small one, but still, quite happy with the outcome. Created using paper n pen. Just wished I had a scanner for a clearer image...but yeah, a camera's fine too. I will skip the explanation n leave the imagination to you... ;)
Monday, February 28, 2011
Time for some art ~
Simply missing my oil painting classes & Art Jamming days at My Art Space. Great place, great people & great fun! ^^
Well, why the sudden thought? That's because I was cleaning up my stuff & guess what I found? Duhh....my previous artworks. Some of them seem silly now, its the same as when you discover years later & wondered why you couldn't understand something you didn't back then that you do now, or wondered why you did something previously that you think is kinda stupid now.
I used to cringe everytime I recalled my "memorable" or else called embarassing moments. Interestingly, really - "Whatever that doesn't matter to you after you die is probably not important" (taken from Don't Sweat the Small Stuff - everything is small stuff) So doesn't it make sense not to take yourself or anything too seriously?
So our past is a part of us no matter we like it or not, but the choices we make in the present will shape our future. We are deceived when we think that we do not have a choice, we always do really. In times of doubt ask for advice or help from a person you trust. So...today I'm choosing to spend some time on my love for art hehe... Happy choosing everyone! ^^
p/s: Looking forward to share my artwork with my family & friends soon....
Well, why the sudden thought? That's because I was cleaning up my stuff & guess what I found? Duhh....my previous artworks. Some of them seem silly now, its the same as when you discover years later & wondered why you couldn't understand something you didn't back then that you do now, or wondered why you did something previously that you think is kinda stupid now.
I used to cringe everytime I recalled my "memorable" or else called embarassing moments. Interestingly, really - "Whatever that doesn't matter to you after you die is probably not important" (taken from Don't Sweat the Small Stuff - everything is small stuff) So doesn't it make sense not to take yourself or anything too seriously?
So our past is a part of us no matter we like it or not, but the choices we make in the present will shape our future. We are deceived when we think that we do not have a choice, we always do really. In times of doubt ask for advice or help from a person you trust. So...today I'm choosing to spend some time on my love for art hehe... Happy choosing everyone! ^^
p/s: Looking forward to share my artwork with my family & friends soon....
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Right Action Follows Right Thinking
What Do You Gain by Worrying?
And who of you by worrying & being anxious can add one unit of measure (cubit) to his stature or to the span of his life? - Matthew 6:27
The point is quickly made that worry is useless. It does not accomplish any good thing. If that is so, then why worry, why be so anxious?
Therefore, Don't Worry or Be Anxious
Therefore do not worry & be anxious, saying, What are we going to eat? or, What are we going to have to drink? or, What are we going to have to wear? - Matthew 6:31
The above passages are taken from the book, "Battlefield of the Mind, Winning the Battle in Your Mind" by Joyce Meyer.
I find the passages above very true. I admit guilty of asking myself & saying "What should i eat?" I did that way too often, haha... :) When we start to think about what we think about, we will come to realize that we may have been worrying about little things that should'nt have to.
This book speaks way beyond 'Worry'. I find every chapter very interesting & heart-lifting. I believe anyone would be able to relate to what it speaks about because no one is spared by the many thoughts that seem to seize our minds. It seems easier to find fault in something & everything, negative thoughts just seem to pop up in our minds. I used to spend a lot of my time worrying, wondering, pondering, & at times, letting my imagination go wild! These are a few of many wrong thinking patterns & i know these gotta go! This book showed me how to do just that! :) I'm not saying that i have totally stopped thinking wrong thougths, the journey is not a walk in the park, but something has moved in me. I simply wish to share it with you, my family & friends :)
It all comes to this - if we desire a change, it all begins with the mind.
p/s : In life's struggles, know that God is on our side! God bless! :)
Monday, January 10, 2011
Not 1 cent less, not 1 cent more.
A phone call today just gave further affirmation to my resignation. Last day of service being 23rd December 2010, i myself couldn't believe there was going to be another "follow-up". Sad to say staff grievances was almost never bothered with, if not, simply left unsolved. Throughout my stay there i have seen many go. Those who left willingly had very similar reasons that lead to the "final resolve". C'mom, nobody likes to leave his or her job (or /group/relationship/etc), if possible i believe a person would find ways & reasons to stay.
It is so frustrating when i have already checked with the HR Department & confirmed the details (of i.e. matters pertaining to salary, annual leaves, etc) with them before i left only to find out now that the information is not as mentioned then.
It is even more upsetting because i've tried hard not to allow all the unpleasant experiences & feelings to follow me here. When will "enough be enough" for this company?? I doubt anytime soon.
All i ask for is my labour's worth.
It is so frustrating when i have already checked with the HR Department & confirmed the details (of i.e. matters pertaining to salary, annual leaves, etc) with them before i left only to find out now that the information is not as mentioned then.
It is even more upsetting because i've tried hard not to allow all the unpleasant experiences & feelings to follow me here. When will "enough be enough" for this company?? I doubt anytime soon.
All i ask for is my labour's worth.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Embracing 2011
This year will be quite different for me in many aspects - my career, surroundings & personal goals. To put it bluntly, these changes mostly resulted in me quitting my 3 year long job...that just means one thing - that my life over that period of time mostly revolved around my career. That was bad... -__-" I promise myself that i will invest my time in the really important things (new year resolution?? :P)
As usual, my to-do-list seems to be endless. When was it ever empty anyways? It will never be! Well, thanks to the book "Don't Sweat The Small Stuff", time & again i will have to remind myself that it's okay n i shouldn't get so worked up about it. There are always tons to do!
Now... despite all the uncertainties ahead of me, i feel content. So far i have spent some quality time with my family & friends. I couldn't have made it this far without them. Just last night me n family enjoyed some fantastic beef steak to celebrate my dad's birthday, yummmm~ ^^ Not to forget the gatherings with my closest friends, & oh the Kayakking & Banana Boat was just plain awesome!!! ^^
I cannot say that my decisions so far have been neither right nor wrong, but i will make the best out of my decision. Cheers everyone! ^^
As usual, my to-do-list seems to be endless. When was it ever empty anyways? It will never be! Well, thanks to the book "Don't Sweat The Small Stuff", time & again i will have to remind myself that it's okay n i shouldn't get so worked up about it. There are always tons to do!
Now... despite all the uncertainties ahead of me, i feel content. So far i have spent some quality time with my family & friends. I couldn't have made it this far without them. Just last night me n family enjoyed some fantastic beef steak to celebrate my dad's birthday, yummmm~ ^^ Not to forget the gatherings with my closest friends, & oh the Kayakking & Banana Boat was just plain awesome!!! ^^
I cannot say that my decisions so far have been neither right nor wrong, but i will make the best out of my decision. Cheers everyone! ^^
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